The problem with Troubles

Hisashiburi !

It has been a while isn't it? I know. I'm aware of it myself.

It's not because i'm lazy. O, i wish it was laziness instead because if that is the case then i would know how to turn things around. But it's not. It is much worse than that.

Remember i told you about the transit? I was and i still am in the worst transit of my life. In the past few weeks of my life, i really felt like i was sailing through the unpredictable and merciless seas. Sometimes the waves was rather rough. Sometimes i had a clear view ahead. Sometimes fog appear in the middle of nowhere. To sum it up, my life was in a chaos.

This indeed is a bad time for me. All my vices were magnified ten folds. Even if the astrologer warned me in advanced not to overly do certain things, how can i go against something that already written? And to make it more interesting, it would also meant that i have to go against my nature.

Obsessive, impulsive, spendthrift, perceptive. Yes, i admit, all that is me. But it's not like it was my fault that i was born with that traits. I can't control how i am going to be. If it was up to me i would have picked all the Cinderella qualities instead. So, if you asked me, i say blame the moon, stars, sun and planets instead of me.  How should i know that the positioning of sky objects would affect my personalities?

And if you tell me it's what i get from Karma for behaving badly in my past life, then tell me what can i do to make things right? What have i done in my previous life that entitled me to a thousandths life repetition? Was i really evil then? Maybe i did kill an entire country population.

There were quite a few interesting things happened to me in the past few weeks. And i will tell you that someday. But not today.

Anyway, so i was thinking, yesterday, a bright idea suddenly flashed into my brain. Before flying to Hong Kong to catch up Il Divo's performance, why don't i make a stop in Singapore and watch the Wizard of Oz? I cannot apply leave from my work too many times in a month. But i think i can apply a longer leave. What do you think? Never mind about being impulsive and spendthrift for i have already accepted that fact about me and make peace with it.

Then it will be wickedly wicked!

Coincidence?

It is on!

There, i've done it.

I bought a ticket to see Il Divo in Hong Kong!

No more thinking. No more pros and cons.

Too late for that.

According to the astrology forecast, i'm currently in a very important transits. A once in a lifetime transit - that much important! And apparently Neptune is beating the hell out of Uranus. It is said that Neptune will shakes me that i will likely lose my grip on reality. I am expected to have sudden mood changes as well as clouded judgments. And i think the stunt i did earlier confirms all allegations.

But who cares?!

The way i see it, Neptune is like a gorgeous drunken man who offers you wine when you sitting alone hiding in a shadow at a club. At least when Neptune is in town i have the excuses to be silly and do all the mistakes that i secretly long to commit.

Heh, that's Neptune before he grew his beard.

Maybe i will regret my actions later on, but for now i'm glad that i did it.

Don't let me go

If there's Love just feel it, if there's Life we'll see it

 

Did you feel it? Did you see it?

Something about James Morrison's voice soothes me.

Laid back yet beautiful.

You'll like me more when i'm calm.

Today's lesson

p/s - this quote is like a kick on my backside that keep me running forward.

the thing about Forest..

is that, he is not a mere Norwegian Forest cat. He is so different in a way that makes me always wonder what he's up to. There is just something in those cold blue eyes.

I guess it's not entirely true when i said i love all my cats equally. It's pretty obvious that i tend to favor Forest more (just a little bit).

Why?

Because he's the only cat who would not come when called. In the beginning i thought he's just playing hard to get, but 2 years have passed and i'm still the one that follow him around like a love struck puppy.

So i simply settled with the conclusion that he must be an aristocrat before he moved in with me the lowly peasant.

And to make me more miserable, his temperament is unpredictable. One day he's okay being petted, and next he wont even let me touch him. But on a good day, the feeling i get for spoiling him makes it's all worth it.

I don't know whether it's just an illusion or what, but when i petted him and he closed his eyes, i noticed something unusual. There was something 'human' in his expression. I was even shouting frantically to my mum "That's a human face! Mum, Forest got a human face!"

And then the strangest thing happened. I went to Bali last year, and there i actually saw a guy that looked like Forest. 

I SWEAR I AM NOT MAKING THIS UP!

The moment i saw the guy, my first thought was "He looks like Forest". The resemblance was undeniable. The puffy eyes, the reddish nose, even looking at the guy messy hair gives me feelings of wanting to pet and smooth his hair. It was very weird.

It was one of those moments, you know. I was staring at the guy the whole time. I think he caught me staring a few times but either my cover ups were good or he just don't care. I thought of approaching him and say hi but he seemed cold and distance (sounds like Forest?). 

He was napping the entire time, couldn't be any clearer than that right? 

And it's not like i can just walked to him and say,

"Hi, i know it's rude to stare but you look just like my cat"

I never saw the guy again after that encounter. But that got me thinking that the way of life is mysterious. Who knows that i myself might resembles someone's cat too?

Enough talking about the guy. Only Forest matters to me.

"You hear that Forest?"

"One day i'm gonna break down those walls of yours"

Shedding the Extra Project # Week 11

This is the update for the 1st week of the year.

I'm gonna say this just once and i want you to forget about it the seconds i said it, alright? Do we have a deal? Okay then.

As you know, on the 10th week i gained 0.6 lbs, so this week i did lose some pounds. Not much but still there's some. It was 0.4 lbs. Yeah. I'm ashamed of myself.

So...

Hey, did you hear Justin Bieber started his BELIEVE project? He said that he won't sing about offensive things. His words to U.S fashion magazine "I'm into love". Isn't he sweet?

For me, there's nothing more manly than a boy standing up for what he believes in. Too bad i'm terrified of needle, for i would have his name tattooed on my hip to show my faith in him. Trypanophobia can be a good thing after all. So, instead of a tattoo, i'm going to add another label in this blog, solely for Justin Bieber related post.

My tattoo would have looked like that. Nice isn't it. I put it together myself. Using microsoft word and paint only.

Anyway, so that's that. I think i'm finished for now.

Adios.

Cute cute cute

Too much cuteness!



One of these days there should be a law against cute boys making cute moves. Too much cuteness is bad for our health. I should be asleep by now, but rather than that, i just can't stop doing my silly dance moves.

Okay, now i seriously need to start sleeping. Really. For real. Yeah. I'm going to do just that.

Right after the next replay.

I found an angel..

.. that walks the earth.

Yep, that's him. Kim Jaejoong.

I mean, my God, just look at him. What kind of mortal who owns face like that? And his eyes are one of the most beautiful thing i ever seen. Those deep intense gazes would easily send one heart's rushing to the Emergency Room.

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— Kim jae joong(@mjjeje) January 1, 2012

His playful side. But those eyes were still saying something like, "don't be a fool, i know it all and i'm gonna strip your soul bare". Intimidating, yet makes you want more. All pictures are taken from his twitter account.

Anyway, the reason he caught my attention was because i just found out that he's actually a Korean and not Japanese. The story goes like this, i watched the Japanese drama Sweet Room, fell in love with the soundtrack "Stand by U" by Tohoshinki, and obviously his voice is the sweetest. But then, that's not enough drive for me to google him, yet.

Time passes.

Seasons change.

This time i saw a video clip of the song "Why Did I Fall In Love With You" by DBSK. It's the same faces, same voices, but they are called DBSK instead of Tohoshinki. That definitely stirs some confusions. I searched only to find out more names. DBSK? Tohoshinki? TVXQ? JYJ? I dived further. Koreans not Japanese? Now you got my full attention.

In the end, after having to learn almost everything about Tohoshinki (let's settled with Tohoshinki cause i was introduced to them as Tohoshinki first), i cannot help but come to adore Kim Jaejoong.

According to Wikipedia, Kim Jaejoong, at the age of 15, he moved alone to Seoul to pursue his dreams. And in the same time he has to earn in order to pay for food, rent and schools. After 2 years, he's the lead vocalist of Tohoshinki aka DBSK aka TVXQ. Since then, he never stop but keep rising and marching forward. And now, as of right now at the moment, he's already an accomplished Singer, Composer, Actor, Model and a Director! He is already all that at the age of 25.

I can't help but to gape and admire. It's true that he has the complete package. But to embark on such journey from young age and be that successful, the combination of talent-look-luck is not enough. So, my bet would be that he is also brave, smart, creative, hardworking and most importantly tenacious.

Thinking back, me, at the age of 15 i still believe in Santa Claus. There's nothing that i really want. I wrote my ambition was to become a scientist when i don't even know what scientist do for real. Dream? I thought dream and ambition is just the same thing. Love and romance? That's beyond my comprehension. When i was 15, there was a senior that has taken an interest in me. And despite his many efforts to woo me, i'm still scared of him until the end. That's one of my funny memories. I remembered asking my friend all sorts of questions about dating. I don't understand why he wanted to know more of me and what good could the info of me possibly benefits him. I just cannot imagined the feeling of needing someone other than my family. And to be at the receiving end, i thought it was just creepy, that someone somehow harbored such thoughts on me. Back then, life to me was just about catching butterflies and smelling the roses.

That is why i have such a GREAT RESPECT for Kim Jaejoong.

Anyway, besides singing he also starred in a few dramas and movies. I haven't see any of his act but i'm looking forward to it. I actually have a dvd of his movie Heaven's Postman. I got it for quite a long time and until now it's still on the rack, unopened and un-watched.

After my father pass away, which soon followed by my grandmother, then my uncle, i don't think i have the guts to go through the similar kind of heartbreaks. Even if it just a simulation, i wouldn't dare to. Cause i don't know what will it take for me to recover and get back on track.

I read from Youtube's review that it's quite a movie. It seems that Kim Jaejoong has stepped up his game. And he even composed the soundtrack himself. I'm so impressed by him. This guy really is exceptional. His limit is probably somewhere beyond the sky.

Even so, i do hope that he'll enjoy his life to the fullest. I think happiness is just a state of mind. So, i'd rather wish him to have a contented life.

After all, there's more to life than this, right?

Just us

Shedding the Extra Project # Week 10

1st update of the year.

Instead of losing weight, i actually gained 0.6 lbs.

So, am i mad at myself? Quite the opposite. I am actually fine with that. Tell you the truth, i have stopped tracking my calories intakes since 3 weeks ago. I know i shouldn't but it's mind numbing to record everything that goes into your mouth. Therefore, i have a new plan. From now on i'm gonna take control.

Last week was a bad week. I succumbed to my PMS cravings. I'm gonna take responsibilities of the extra 0.6 lbs. I promise i will make up to it as soon as i have finished my period. This is unavoidable circumstances. When i'm menstruating i wont be doing anything but lazing around.

Everything is in pause, for the time being.

At least until my period is over.

Living on Earth ..

.. may be expensive, but it includes an annual free trip around the Sun

What interest me?

If you noticed, i added a new gadget into this blog. I called it "Blogs I Follows", which is very cliche, i know. I'm not that creative thus the title.

I found this Japan's blog which is very interesting and very different from other tourism blogs. Anyone who are interested in Japanese culture should checked out this blog.

Here is one of the intriguing stuff i found on the blog. They say..

"Everyone should climb Mount Fuji once; only a fool would climb it twice"

The climbing season at Fuji is from July 1 to August 31

And i'm not that stupid to go and climb that thing.

Now i'm all about Samurai, Ronin, Ninja and etc. And i'm especially fascinated by Miyamoto Musashi story. Don't worry. It's not an obsession. This interest of mine is only seasonal, which soon will pass.

I do hope so.