Shedding the Extra Project # Week 5

I know this update is a bit late, but yesterday was a public holiday, and so is blogging (my rules). So, here it is. But before that, just so you know, doing this update is a bit stressful for me. Especially when it has been a bad week. Do you get where i'm going with this?

I saw the stories of people who survived misfortunes at National Geographic channel, they said "just when you thought things couldn't get any worse, well, they do".

I thought 2.8lbs at Week 4 was bad. Well, try this, 1.6lbs at Week 5.

I'm not gonna create excuses to defend myself this time. I'm not even gonna blame the weather (although, most of the time il pleut des cordes!) for not being supportive. This time, my shields are down, and i'm gonna take all the blows.

Shedding the Extra Project # Week 4

I'm not really in the mood to talk about the shedding project right now. But since my mum already on the subject (yes, she's doing a weekly checking on me), i figured why don't i update my progress at once so i can be done with it. Okay, so last week i've only lost 2.8 lbs. Accumulated loss to-date 16.6 lbs. I don't have any explanation for the 2.8 lbs. And i don't know where i did wrong. Never once i cheated last week, and i never, ever, even once went over my calories limit. I have been nothing but true to my course.

So, what went wrong, then? If you'd asked me, i'd blame the weather. Last week, most of the days have only been either cloudy or raining. When it's not raining, the sky would look grey. And grey sky makes me passive. There's just something melancholy about grey sky. In that weather, i tend to listen to sad songs, read sad poems, or just lie in my bed and do nothing. And when the night fall i wouldn't turn on the lights cause i feel calm in the dark. So i believe all that lead to the slowing of my metabolism.

And, the weather forecast for this week doesn't look good either!

My affairs with pirates

So, i downloaded this apps called 'Pirates In Love' to my iphone few days ago. If you must know me, i'm the kind of people who you'll always find lingering around the "free stuff" section. But let me warn you in advance that where i'm going with this does not have a happy ending.

99% of the time, the free stuff is not that free. Yeah, believe me. I know. They're very cunning indeed. And so it is with the Pirates In Love apps. The only thing free in the apps is the Prologue. And i have just the right vice that makes me fell right into the trap. My curiosity is just as bad as the cat's.

I can't stand the feeling of not knowing something. It was bad enough that the relief to my ache is right in front of my eyes, which was just a click away, that each character has different story and need to be purchased separately. It's $3.99 per character. In USD, of course!

So, did i clicked it? What's the odds that i wouldn't? Like zero percent, maybe. The apps is a simulation game. It's a story about a girl who accidentally boarded a pirates ship. From there she'll experiences many adventures and eventually she'll fell in love with one of the pirates.

At the end of the prologue, i was to choose a roommate for the girl. My first instinct was to go for the nicest pirate, and that would be the doctor, Christoper. Little did i know that the girl would fall in love with her roommate. It's logic. To think of it, we actually do have the tendency to fall in love with the person whom we spend most of our time with.

My not-so-happy ending was when i end up downloading all of the character. It was reckless of me, but i can't help it, i just got to know. There are no way i can sleep through any nights and move on with life if i don't know the ending.

Overall, i would say this apps is definitely entertaining. It is pricey, of course. There's no denying to that. But i think it worth the unusually good mood and smile you'll be having afterwards. By the way, of all the pirates, i like Nathan's game the best.

And did i mentioned that they'll write to you once a while through the episodes? Check out Eduardo's last letter after the Super Happy Ending. I almost fell off my chair when i read that. I'm not sure how to react to that. I mean should i laugh? or should i cry? or barf? roll over the floor, maybe?

But i know one thing for sure, that there's a tickling in my stomach!

Another love sick song

Well, Il Divo brought me to Celine Dion's song, Pour Que Tu M'aimes Encore. Translated as So That You Love Me Still. I prefer Celine's version because it is more softer.

The song is about a girl pleading to a man that has left her for another, to love her still. She's desperate for him to come back up to the point that she's willing to resort to black magic.

The lyrics are so beautiful. It touched my heart right on the spot. Is all french songs this poetic?



The best translation i found on the web is here. Check out some of the lyrics. My favorite part.

J’irai chercher ton coeur si tu l’emportes ailleurs
Même si dans tes danses d’autres dansent tes heures
J’irai chercher ton âme dans les froids dans les flammes
Je te jetterai des sorts pour que tu m’aimes encore...

Je trouverai des langages pour chanter tes louanges
Je ferai nos bagages pour d’infinies vendanges
Les formules magiques des marabouts d’Afrique
J’les dirai sans remords pour que tu m’aimes encore...

Je m’inventerai reine pour que tu me retiennes
Je me ferai nouvelle pour que le feu reprenne
Je deviendrai ces autres qui te donnent du plaisir
Vos jeux seront les nôtres si tel est ton désir
Plus brillante plus belle pour une autre étincelle
Je me changerai en or pour que tu m’aimes encore



I'll look for your heart if you take it somewhere else
Even if when you dance, others are dancing with you
I'll look for your soul in the cold, in the flame
I'll cast a spell on you, so that you love me still

I'll find other languages to sing your praises
I'll pack our bags for the fields of eternal harvests
I'll say those magic words spoken by African healers
I'll say them with no regrets, so that you love me still

I'll make myself a queen so that you don't leave me
I'll make myself new so the fire starts again
I'll become like those other women who make you happy
Your games will be our games, if that's what you desire
I'll make myself brighter, more beautiful, to rekindle the spark
I'll turn myself to gold, so that you love me still

Now, where do i find someone that'll say those words to me? Hmmm.

My melancholy song

I'm not finish with Il Divo.

Listen to them singing the song Caruso.



This song crush my heart. Makes me want to go hide inside the closet and cry until there's no more tears.

Shedding the Extra Project # Week 3

I must say last week was not pretty. Temptations lurking everywhere. My office threw a BBQ party to celebrate the completion of one project and i can not escaped. Actually i could if i want to, but then that'll be rude. I have to give my boss a face. So, i gave in. I took 5 skewered chickens because that's the most normal quantity to avoid suspicions and questions. And i thought it was the best chicken i ever had in my life. After that, life went back to normal, i carried on my diet, until the weekend arrived. I thought weekend's diet would be the easiest but i was dead wrong. You see, i was doing fine by eating only green apples while reading book on my bed until my neighbour start cooking lunch. It was horrific. To make the matter worst, i can even tell that they're frying chicken marinated in lemon and soy sauce! I was drooling the entire time. It was not pretty and even St. Bernard look prettier than me.

So, last week i lost 5.2 lbs. Total accumulated pounds lost to date would be 13.8 lbs. I actually had a good feeling about this. At least giving up was not one of my concerns anymore. In the near future, i can see one of the problem i had to face is clothing. Even now all my pants are starting to feel wobbly. And nothing i dread more than buying an entire new wardrobe. Call me stingy but i hate spending my hard earn cash on clothing. To me, buying new clothes when i'm still covered with one and while few are hanging in my wardrobe, would be the most pointless purchase ever. I'm the girl that have only 2 pants and regulates between them for a year. Yeah, i'm THAT stingy.

Anyway, for the 4th week of this project, i'm thinking of adding some very minor and light exercises to the equation. But i wouldn't count much on that because exercising is obviously my all time nemesis. What ever it is, we'll see.

Wish me Gambatte Kudasai!

It's Saturday!

Yay! Saturday has always been my favorite day of the week. Why? Because Sunday is my day off. So tonight i'm going to do all the stupid crazy things that i've been putting on hold. Sorry, let me correct that. Actually, i don't have anything crazy on my list. Me, crazy? Like that ever going to happen. I'm always the reasonable one.

So, my theme song for today, it's by Lloyd, Dedication to My Ex. This song is really funky. I could easily forget that i'm still in the office and start moving to the beat. O, i can't wait till it's 5 pm. So i can go home and perform my silly dance to this song. It's a good work out songs too.

According to healthstatus.com, i could burn up to 500 calories for an hour dance. And that 500 calories equal to 4 whole chicken wings of KFC Original Recipe. See, there's a new definition for penance in gluttony.

Have you seen the video? I mean, my god, the girl in the black leather is so hot. And she looks like Alicia Keys too, right? When she did the meowing gesture, i swear i almost howl.

Love, where art thou?

I can't stop obsessing over Il Divo! Guess, who is my favorite? It's the guy from Spain, Carlos. His deep vibrato sends chill to my bones and for a moment there, i forgot to breathe.

And when they sing of love, it break through many layers, and touch your soul to the core. It makes me believe that there is a great love such as that.

Il Divo is no doubt heaven sent.

Shedding the Extra Project # Week 2

It's the hardest week of all. I'm not exaggerating this but i felt like i have already been dieting for 100 years. I know it has only been 2 weeks. So i shouldn't fret much. But last week really has been kind of tough on me. I don't have problem to curb my hunger and desire for food. In fact, a few times this week i failed to meet the 1200 calories per day target.

My problem is, it start to occur to me that life has no meaning if i can't go on eating leisurely. So, i start questioning my goal. Debate the importance of it. Argue the reasons. Belittle every goodness that i could possibly profit from it.

Then, in the end, i managed to come up with a list of reasons of why i shouldn't lose weight. And i'm afraid that i find it pretty convincing.

But don't worry, cause i'm not ready to accept defeat. Besides, i'm pretty sure that my mom won't let me off that easily.

Anyway, last week i lost 3.6 lbs. Accumulated weight lost 8.6 lbs.

My period started last week. People say that you tend to gain weight during menstruation because of bloating and water retention. So, i expect to lose more next week.

What the cat dragged in

Well, well, well...

I have just got back to civilization today, and i realized the world has become a little bit more interesting in the past few days. What am i referring to? Well, of course i'm talking about Justin Bieber and Kim Kardashian news flash, what else could it be?

Reading the headline "Justin Bieber a daddy?" definitely crack the first smile on my face this morning. A 20 years old girl claiming to have give birth to 17 years old Justin Bieber's child. To me, it only comes down to either the girl is a delusional pyscho or that Justin Bieber missed the sex education class. Up until now Justin hasn't denied anything but just shrugged off the claim, makes me wonder whether the girl is just bluffing. If what she wants is Justin's attention, then i'm pretty sure that her name will be forever imprinted in Justin's brain. He has every right not to entertain the request for paternity test. Why should he? Because if he is to heed to this one request, why not do the same for the other hundreds girl that been with him ever since?

For me, false allegation is worse than murder. It's the lowest of the lowest. You think that one who had been falsely accused would be justified once the truth is out? If you think so then you are clueless. No amount of money would ever compensate the damages justly. Once broken it will never look the same.

I had a brother who had been wrongly accused of raping before, so i know both the talk and the walk. The girl just have to lift her finger and point to destroy my brother's life. He was put to jail without bail for 7 days. Police searched our house as if we're hiding terrorist. And i don't even want to describe the terror in our neighbours face. How can you say you don't when people already decided you do? Eventually, the DNA test result come out, the truth revealed and my brother now a free man. Sounds like a happy ending, right?

But the reality is, the charge was dropped because there was never a case. The girl aka the accuser came to our house a few days before my brother was released. She apologized and explained her real intention. She made up the story of how my brother had compromised her and told her parents that, hoping her parents will confront my brother to take responsibility and marry her right away. And no matter how much efforts you tried to make the word "touch" to sound nice, the suspicious brains will always find a way to translate it as an attempted rape. Yes, don't be shocked, there are still people with this kind of mind set living among us to this day. Believe me, dinosaur may extinct but they don't.

The visible damages may seemed minor. 1 week pay burned. Reputation. Sometimes in the future when another case such as this occurred, guess who's the 1st to be doubt? But to me all that are insignificant compared to the mental damaged on my brother. When i told my brother the next move is his to counter attack, he said he simply lazy to create another case. He looked at the whole experience as just his bad luck. His words are, "don't be nice to just anybody, cause some might just take it wrong".

Anyway, that end the Justin Bieber topic. So now let us talk about Kim's 72 days marriage. At first when i heard the news i was so outraged, i felt cheated and i felt like i want to yell to somebody. I may not a fan of marriage but i honour the holy institution of marriage. So when Kim announced divorce just a few weeks after i watched her Fairytale Wedding on TV, i was so angry because she makes marriage looks like a joke. I even made a mental note to thank her for contributing strong points in the future "why i don't marry" discussion with my mother. But then after a while when the voices in my head quiet down, i decided to shift my angle and change my perspective. I don't really like to say this out loud, but once i tried putting myself in her shoes, i can't help but start to admire her guts. She has her own fair share in love. And i'm sure all broken hearts hurt just about the same. Still, she never give up. Yesterday she cried, today she laugh, by tomorrow she's ready to trust again. She is too generous with love, and i think that's her flaw, the same flaw which makes her everyone's sweetheart.

I did a compatibility reading using Kim and Kris chinese animal sign, Kim born year of monkey and Kris born year of the rat, the result was spectacular. Their combination supposed to be fireworks.

Things must have gone wrong somewhere. And there's only 2 people in the world know what is it. So, i don't want to speculate anything, nor did i want to hear what others have in mind.

Is it silly for me to hope that both of them, Kim and Kris, to reconcile?

Even so, i still wish that they would find their way back to each other's heart, just like how they found each other the first time. I hope both of them realized that whatever it is standing in their way to keep them apart is nothing but a monster created by their own mind which they led to believe.

I believe that we are the master of our own destiny. No one can make you do the things you don't want to do. There's always a choice. You just have to be bold with it.

And there is no such thing as "it's too late". Time was never an enemy. Time is what trigger you and drive you forward. So long as you still feels your pulse, there's always time.

So, Kris Humpries, i plead to you, kindly please be the bigger person and start the mending work now. Cause the only thing that matters is who you're coming home to at the end of the day.

And Kimberly, i believe you married for love, your face tells it all, couldn't be more obvious than that. People make mistakes every time. Did you know that aside from love, it is also normal to hate, doubt, mad, envy and do only the negatives? It's the only way to be human. But human's best quality is they're also capable of a great love, the one that conquers all things, surpasses all understanding. It's not a myth. So, what you say? How about giving it one more chance? Blame the PMS if you must, but you got to start patching now.

They're are happy together, that's all that matters.