Birdy

I've heard Skinny Love a long time ago but I never got to check out all her other songs though. Until now. Don't know whether it's the lyrics or just her voice but almost all her song brought me to tears. Maybe it's just the estrogen messing around. Or maybe it's the dark clouds over my head.

Say something

I'm giving up on you..

What a nice song isn't it?

Beautiful sadness

It's amazing how a simple melody can turn a sad story into a beautiful song. I wish the world is a stage. And life is a play. It could be one of Shakespeare's. Then, reality won't be so cold and harsh. A tragedy would be a poetry to be read before bedtime. A scar would be a work of art. And life would be beautiful again.



My favorite lyrics,

"I knew that it takes getting everything you ever wanted, and then losing it to know what true freedom is."

Kavana - Will you wait for me

This song will always haunt me in my dreams.



I used to have the biggest crush on this British pop star. Actually, if i may correct that, i still, am, up to this date, crazy and madly in love like a wanton fool over this guy. Doesn't matter that he put up a little weight. It's his voice that taunt your soul. Makes you aching for more. I used to have his album in a cassette, which i bought using my allowance. I remembered my father scolding me of spending his money on useless stuff (according to him). That was 15 years ago. Now the cassette was long gone missing but i still listened to Kavana on my iphone, thanks to iTunes. Heh.

Just listen to him. Don't you feel that his voice just taunt your soul?

Ugly

Have you ever heard 2NE1 song 'Ugly'? Well, here's Sungha Jung version of the song.



I feel like crap today. I was chirpy and happy this morning until Mr. walked in to my office and makes me feel crap. I'm in a dead end relationship. And there's no way getting out of it. Unless death be so kind and do us a favor. Of course i don't mind to go first. Then in the next life i would make sure that our fate won't cross each others again. We'll be at least 5000 miles away from each other.

Why didn't i just break free? I don't know. Maybe i'm scared to hurt. Or maybe i'm just a coward. It's not like i haven't tried. I did tried. A couple of times. But in the end, i'm still here. Trapped. It's like i'm paying for my past life sins. Karma won't let me through until i learn the lesson.

Feeling sexy

Addicted to you by Shakira.

Not that i have anyone i'm addicted to.



I would sell my soul to the devil to have a body like Shakira.

the one that got away

In another life, i will make you stay..



I hate this melancholic feeling.

Weekend breakaway

So, last Saturday i went to Jakarta. It was a very VERY short trip. I stayed only 1 night and flew back to Malaysia the next day. 

The main purpose of the trip is quite obvious isn't it?

I tell you, a short trip will not promise relaxation. But i can assure you that it will be QUITE a trip.

The rush begin the moment i touchdown Jakarta Airport. My first stop was Balai Kartini.

1 Phantom down, 1 Barritone and 3 Tenors to go.

The highlight of my trip, which i nearly missed. It was actually a funny story. You see, before coming to Jakarta i purposely booked a hotel which i thought within a walking distance to Il Divo's concert venue. I took a taxi to Ritz Carlton because it was already dark. It was supposed to be only 5 minutes taxi ride, and after 10 minutes the taxi still not stopping. I finally started to panic when i saw the Ritz-Carlton building slowly disappearing from my view, and we were still moving even farther away. A few kind of thoughts start playing in my mind, and i CALMLY prepared for the worst possibility. 

Then i gathered all my composure and asked the driver why aren't we going the other direction, and he replied "Because you want to go to Ritz-Carlton Pacific".

Upon hearing those words, i nodded, as if i was approving. Not a trace of emotion on my face. But my heart was jumping and shouting, relief. A tornado just passed and i dodged it.

But i still cannot believe that ME of all people, missed the very important fact that there are actually 2 Ritz-Carlton in Jakarta. I am usually very organized. Prior to visiting a place i will usually do an extensive research of the subject. I will read up to it's ice age history, no kidding.

Still, i do give thanks to God for not testing me especially on that day. Seriously, the thought of jumping out of  the moving taxi did crossed my mind, you know.

Melanconia. Roaring fires. Il Divo's signature backdrop for the song.

My travel essential. I travel light. And of course i bring panties as well.

I'm not sure what time did the show really ended because i leave the ballroom when others still shouting "We want more!". 

Why should i want more if i would see them again in Hong Kong next month?

Kiss the rain

As i was listening to Sungha Jung playing to the song "Kiss The Rain" last night, i can feel that all the previous madness and tensions slowly start seeping away from me. And it is indeed.

This morning when i checked my astrology forecast, i found out that a new transit starts today.

An exciting transit, i hope.



Enjoy the music.

the only exception

I know in the past i've said that i will try (not promise) to control my impulsive spending but i'm helpless when it comes to beautiful music. So, put Il Divo and Phantom of the Opera on my tab cause i'm going to watch both of them on the same day in Jakarta at the end of this month.



Sorry Phantom, i will never choose you, not in this lifetime or in any lifetime after this.

And what is with the "Love Never Dies"? If it's not by Gaston Leroux then it's not a sequel. For me, putting a sequel to the Phantom of the Opera is like putting a sequel to the Titanic. A sequel would only degrading the Masterpiece.

I say, let it go.

It is on!

There, i've done it.

I bought a ticket to see Il Divo in Hong Kong!

No more thinking. No more pros and cons.

Too late for that.

According to the astrology forecast, i'm currently in a very important transits. A once in a lifetime transit - that much important! And apparently Neptune is beating the hell out of Uranus. It is said that Neptune will shakes me that i will likely lose my grip on reality. I am expected to have sudden mood changes as well as clouded judgments. And i think the stunt i did earlier confirms all allegations.

But who cares?!

The way i see it, Neptune is like a gorgeous drunken man who offers you wine when you sitting alone hiding in a shadow at a club. At least when Neptune is in town i have the excuses to be silly and do all the mistakes that i secretly long to commit.

Heh, that's Neptune before he grew his beard.

Maybe i will regret my actions later on, but for now i'm glad that i did it.

Don't let me go

If there's Love just feel it, if there's Life we'll see it

 

Did you feel it? Did you see it?

Something about James Morrison's voice soothes me.

Laid back yet beautiful.

You'll like me more when i'm calm.

Cute cute cute

Too much cuteness!



One of these days there should be a law against cute boys making cute moves. Too much cuteness is bad for our health. I should be asleep by now, but rather than that, i just can't stop doing my silly dance moves.

Okay, now i seriously need to start sleeping. Really. For real. Yeah. I'm going to do just that.

Right after the next replay.

I found an angel..

.. that walks the earth.

Yep, that's him. Kim Jaejoong.

I mean, my God, just look at him. What kind of mortal who owns face like that? And his eyes are one of the most beautiful thing i ever seen. Those deep intense gazes would easily send one heart's rushing to the Emergency Room.

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— Kim jae joong(@mjjeje) January 1, 2012

His playful side. But those eyes were still saying something like, "don't be a fool, i know it all and i'm gonna strip your soul bare". Intimidating, yet makes you want more. All pictures are taken from his twitter account.

Anyway, the reason he caught my attention was because i just found out that he's actually a Korean and not Japanese. The story goes like this, i watched the Japanese drama Sweet Room, fell in love with the soundtrack "Stand by U" by Tohoshinki, and obviously his voice is the sweetest. But then, that's not enough drive for me to google him, yet.

Time passes.

Seasons change.

This time i saw a video clip of the song "Why Did I Fall In Love With You" by DBSK. It's the same faces, same voices, but they are called DBSK instead of Tohoshinki. That definitely stirs some confusions. I searched only to find out more names. DBSK? Tohoshinki? TVXQ? JYJ? I dived further. Koreans not Japanese? Now you got my full attention.

In the end, after having to learn almost everything about Tohoshinki (let's settled with Tohoshinki cause i was introduced to them as Tohoshinki first), i cannot help but come to adore Kim Jaejoong.

According to Wikipedia, Kim Jaejoong, at the age of 15, he moved alone to Seoul to pursue his dreams. And in the same time he has to earn in order to pay for food, rent and schools. After 2 years, he's the lead vocalist of Tohoshinki aka DBSK aka TVXQ. Since then, he never stop but keep rising and marching forward. And now, as of right now at the moment, he's already an accomplished Singer, Composer, Actor, Model and a Director! He is already all that at the age of 25.

I can't help but to gape and admire. It's true that he has the complete package. But to embark on such journey from young age and be that successful, the combination of talent-look-luck is not enough. So, my bet would be that he is also brave, smart, creative, hardworking and most importantly tenacious.

Thinking back, me, at the age of 15 i still believe in Santa Claus. There's nothing that i really want. I wrote my ambition was to become a scientist when i don't even know what scientist do for real. Dream? I thought dream and ambition is just the same thing. Love and romance? That's beyond my comprehension. When i was 15, there was a senior that has taken an interest in me. And despite his many efforts to woo me, i'm still scared of him until the end. That's one of my funny memories. I remembered asking my friend all sorts of questions about dating. I don't understand why he wanted to know more of me and what good could the info of me possibly benefits him. I just cannot imagined the feeling of needing someone other than my family. And to be at the receiving end, i thought it was just creepy, that someone somehow harbored such thoughts on me. Back then, life to me was just about catching butterflies and smelling the roses.

That is why i have such a GREAT RESPECT for Kim Jaejoong.

Anyway, besides singing he also starred in a few dramas and movies. I haven't see any of his act but i'm looking forward to it. I actually have a dvd of his movie Heaven's Postman. I got it for quite a long time and until now it's still on the rack, unopened and un-watched.

After my father pass away, which soon followed by my grandmother, then my uncle, i don't think i have the guts to go through the similar kind of heartbreaks. Even if it just a simulation, i wouldn't dare to. Cause i don't know what will it take for me to recover and get back on track.

I read from Youtube's review that it's quite a movie. It seems that Kim Jaejoong has stepped up his game. And he even composed the soundtrack himself. I'm so impressed by him. This guy really is exceptional. His limit is probably somewhere beyond the sky.

Even so, i do hope that he'll enjoy his life to the fullest. I think happiness is just a state of mind. So, i'd rather wish him to have a contented life.

After all, there's more to life than this, right?

My New Year Theme Song

Here is a disturbingly cute Song & Video.

I used to tease my sister obsession of KPOP all the time. She's just hopeless when it comes to the Korean boy bands and their cute moves. And overtime i, too, finally succumbed to those cuteness.

Well, wont life a bit dull without KPOP?

A thousand years

Heard this song on MTV the other day. And it had me captivated right on.

Damn, why does this song has to be so beautiful?



Please tell me that is not true. Please tell me that human is incapable of such love. A thousand years is an eternity long. It's just too much.

Another love sick song

Well, Il Divo brought me to Celine Dion's song, Pour Que Tu M'aimes Encore. Translated as So That You Love Me Still. I prefer Celine's version because it is more softer.

The song is about a girl pleading to a man that has left her for another, to love her still. She's desperate for him to come back up to the point that she's willing to resort to black magic.

The lyrics are so beautiful. It touched my heart right on the spot. Is all french songs this poetic?



The best translation i found on the web is here. Check out some of the lyrics. My favorite part.

J’irai chercher ton coeur si tu l’emportes ailleurs
Même si dans tes danses d’autres dansent tes heures
J’irai chercher ton âme dans les froids dans les flammes
Je te jetterai des sorts pour que tu m’aimes encore...

Je trouverai des langages pour chanter tes louanges
Je ferai nos bagages pour d’infinies vendanges
Les formules magiques des marabouts d’Afrique
J’les dirai sans remords pour que tu m’aimes encore...

Je m’inventerai reine pour que tu me retiennes
Je me ferai nouvelle pour que le feu reprenne
Je deviendrai ces autres qui te donnent du plaisir
Vos jeux seront les nôtres si tel est ton désir
Plus brillante plus belle pour une autre étincelle
Je me changerai en or pour que tu m’aimes encore



I'll look for your heart if you take it somewhere else
Even if when you dance, others are dancing with you
I'll look for your soul in the cold, in the flame
I'll cast a spell on you, so that you love me still

I'll find other languages to sing your praises
I'll pack our bags for the fields of eternal harvests
I'll say those magic words spoken by African healers
I'll say them with no regrets, so that you love me still

I'll make myself a queen so that you don't leave me
I'll make myself new so the fire starts again
I'll become like those other women who make you happy
Your games will be our games, if that's what you desire
I'll make myself brighter, more beautiful, to rekindle the spark
I'll turn myself to gold, so that you love me still

Now, where do i find someone that'll say those words to me? Hmmm.

My melancholy song

I'm not finish with Il Divo.

Listen to them singing the song Caruso.



This song crush my heart. Makes me want to go hide inside the closet and cry until there's no more tears.

It's Saturday!

Yay! Saturday has always been my favorite day of the week. Why? Because Sunday is my day off. So tonight i'm going to do all the stupid crazy things that i've been putting on hold. Sorry, let me correct that. Actually, i don't have anything crazy on my list. Me, crazy? Like that ever going to happen. I'm always the reasonable one.

So, my theme song for today, it's by Lloyd, Dedication to My Ex. This song is really funky. I could easily forget that i'm still in the office and start moving to the beat. O, i can't wait till it's 5 pm. So i can go home and perform my silly dance to this song. It's a good work out songs too.

According to healthstatus.com, i could burn up to 500 calories for an hour dance. And that 500 calories equal to 4 whole chicken wings of KFC Original Recipe. See, there's a new definition for penance in gluttony.

Have you seen the video? I mean, my god, the girl in the black leather is so hot. And she looks like Alicia Keys too, right? When she did the meowing gesture, i swear i almost howl.

Love, where art thou?

I can't stop obsessing over Il Divo! Guess, who is my favorite? It's the guy from Spain, Carlos. His deep vibrato sends chill to my bones and for a moment there, i forgot to breathe.

And when they sing of love, it break through many layers, and touch your soul to the core. It makes me believe that there is a great love such as that.

Il Divo is no doubt heaven sent.